Cooper ;)

First of all.....

HYE GUYS! sorry been a while innit? well yeah its not that anyone reads this blog anyway, well except you qila! LUB YOU! haha.

 So, i'll go straight ahead to the point. Theres this guy i met on the net, a gay website if u may, and his name is Cooper ( not real name obviously, im not stupid enough okee, since i have like a gazillion stalkers! i know i know, VAIN! lol )

 Like any other conversation, it starts with a hello, and one thing leads to another, so i asked him for his facebook, and i remember him telling me this, 44% of malaysians have a facebook account, what are the odds of me not having one? haha. Hes a jerk obviously, a diva, well, you could put it this way, a typical gay bitch. hahah kinda. but i like him that way, i dont know why....well Qila, you know that im turned on when im rejected right? LOL.

So, i stalked his pictures, AND OUH MY GOD GIRL HE ISSS FINE! i just love when he smiles...ah it blows my mind off! i mean, his kind of smile is the one which can make you smile along you know...haha i am even smiling as im typing this! BUT GIRLS DONT BE TOO EXCITED! yes, you guessed it, hes taken, as in he has a boyfriend, as in someone to rely on, as in someone who he must be, dearly loves and loved.

 So, i stalked his bf, Dante( again not real name ) AND DUN DUN! mutual friends - a few gay friends....and tadaa one of my girls, Yaya!. 

                     So, i straight away called Yaya and asked her about him, It seems that Dante is someone she met in an event and took pictures and showed me about a couple of months ago!.I was heartbroken, I was pretty sure he is hot, as Yaya is sooo picky so if she says she likes him, he must be hot. I checked out Dante, and he is hot, you could say they are the perfect couple sort of speak.

       This has always happened to me, whenever i meet a guy i like, he must be either straight, or well, taken, or too hot for me. I mean im ugly anyway. bleah.

          Being the straight forward person i am, i told him that he is hot and stuff, coz he is! not just by looks tho, i love his personality. Anyway we chatted on and on, and everytime im online, i eagerly waited for him to be online so that we can talk again. We have only known each other for a few days, but im already like this, i know qila its not healthy and i might get hurt again, but i promised i wont put in too much feelings into him okee? Although sometimes we dont even know what to talk about, so he would ask me to ask/tell him stuff. haha and i did, but i made a mistake, i told him about aiman, how pathetic, he must think i am anyway.

       So for now, we are just chatting with each other, as friends...i dont ask for more, well i dont want more anyway, i dont want to ruin his relationship cause i know how it feels like to be cheated on - not a very happy feeling if its not obvious enough. Besides, at least he talks to me, so im just going to appreciate that for now.

This is the story of my life, i can never get the man i wanted, ever.

1. because im ugly.

2. im uninteresting, trust me, u will get bored of me fast.

3. karma, because i have hurt a man in the past. But that is another story....

PS: i just dont love his smiles, but every of his facial expression! Comel sangat! :)

PPS: im listening to I try by Macy Gray when im writing this. Sedeyh sangat!. heh.

"i know i cant get you, but im always here for you" - something i said to someone longg time ago, copyrighted okee! hahah